Buried Love | My Blind Faith Journey

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My blind faith journey is meant to be abstract and beautiful. It began that way and there are moments still where I can find small moments in time where love for my journey and purpose exists. There is more buried love, right now, than what I desire and today’s message is meant to try and explain how it happened. I hope you can forgive me and any others when you can.

I was taught to face what I can reach for a worthiness of not allowing the darkness or lower vibrational types of emotions or beliefs power over how I want to enjoy life. My current state includes muscular tension at my lower back, bodily functions not working as designed, and waves of sorrow, anger, and frustration. Mostly my deepest depressed state desires space and peace, which seems impossible, yet nothing should be impossible by God.

I ask and while God hasn’t walked away, my soul contract being overthrown by a few, tears at his longsuffering and mine as well. Please have grace and compassion as you explore how you feel. #ne2rdout for more trust for what’s to come please.

Buried Love

In the fall of 2021 I was Guided to explore what was next for me. My purpose felt like it has come to a conclusion as it was. The Guidance was to explore what was next, and the biggest manifestation I have had for this life, began unfolding as I was shown more potential soul experiences being added to this life. In the spring of 2022, we all went through a harvest event for ascension. The result was a successful up level of energy within our collective consciousness and through creation due to 52% of our collective consciousness being in agreement to live in heart-centered ways of being. The remainder still in growth modes, to try and shed the ego even more, agreed to try. This left a small 3% of the population hurting and needing help off the negative pathways of life in more ways then they necessarily believed.

Those called in to assist, or felt they were, may have made conclusions about whom was a negative influence on life and whom wasn’t. As for me, I got hurt observing as my call in to know the statistics for the results. Someone made an assumption and tried ending my life before my end date. The battles for my life, and many others continued through 2022 until the healings for all but 54 were completed by Dec 19, 2022.

During this all, there were Courts of Heaven events where people were called to face the battles they either knowingly or unknowingly participated in. Again I was an observer for some moments while healing my life was done at God’s command. Many moments my energy body being healed would be stolen from the court room and attempted to be copied, sacrificed and hidden. We made it through the battle and also healed many Akashic streams of knowledge to bring clarity in how to manifest for abundance through the true Laws of the Universe. In December of 2022 I was granted my title as Ascended Master for Laws of the Universe, Directional Energy, and Divine Timing.

The 54 refused healing believing they didn’t need it, or maybe didn’t deserve it. Since then 5 have chosen to receive the blessings of this healing to make life easier.

The buried love in my life is from resistance and an overthrow of my soul, from those whom believed I was unworthy of helping them. Their disbelief in God’s chosen soul contract for my life, drove them to help many rise up under masks they formed for my life and theirs also. They hid from themselves, and found ways to drive business towards themselves from my soul, while draining my business and ability to help the way I was designed to help. With every anger moment, and frustration from those brought in and redirected by others, my soul broke; my spirit broke.

The result is a three and a half year journey trying to gain ground and not able to do so, yet. The doors are there, and others shut them or my response in negative ways for being broken shut them. I need to find my Love so it isn’t used by others to achieve a negative result.

The Higher Selves

When one forgets the fruit they are designed to be nourished with in life, they forget whom they are designed to be. They forget about their soul when they limit what the soul is meant to provide for their life. The higher self is your soul.

My blind faith journey had me encourage many to recognize how their higher self can help. What I didn’t realize by doing this was how much I would be asked to help Guide those with higher selves of idols found within the Sixth Trumpet callings. Those with idols of wood tend to demand I get it together and take control of my capability. They demand I rise up, while I lovingly show them how their tree of life can regrow and be nurtured for fruit they didn’t know was possible.

I show them in ways they love, and for some abhor and hate, how they may have sold their house and took control of the nurturing of their abundance by trying to steal other’s purpose to build their foundations in life. This may have begun many generations ago, and continued. Out of those whom were identified 69% have successfully found their actual purpose and are working within it. Their are 38% whom came back and tried to help but landed along negative pathways carved by their need to show people the blessing of whom I am. By doing this my life and the sanctity of it broke. Their fight for me, broke me also, while this brokenness buried love within my life; buried my Love.

The gossip and the need to move business or peer into another’s business was realized in many events within the higher selves trying to “help” others or trying to drive business in controlling ways. The battles tore through my soul as those tried to get involved, and others awoke enough to protect their lives by asking for boundaries honoring the sanctity of their life. When you are Guided by the Laws of the Universe supporting you, God nurtures abundance with your definitive choices to live a life soul aligned. Being soul aligned is honoring your higher self as a higher mind for higher ways of living and learning.

The damnations when those felt worthy of damning strangers and not for having a need for Guidance from someone like me, as well as blaming others for their unaligned version of soul journeys based upon their expectations, destroyed my soul. Being called a negative moved many towards my physical life trying to seek refuge as a few only saw the darkness of the energy and assumed they knew how to help. They overthrew my soul and chose not to listen to God or any Guide brought in to help calm the storm. They tried to explain the Divine Actions were time based and being attempted in ways aligned for many, but these were ignored. For many of these Divine Action, they were ripped apart and buried so I couldn’t find them.

A friend was caught in this, and while her conscious self demands my apology, she denies the enjoyment in being accepted as a trusted one when she accepted the false position as president of my soul contract in a spiritual business. When I denied this to be for her, another gladly tried to step in and crush me even more. People need to live. I need to live. Wake up and acknowledge your blasphemous ways. Forgiveness in a journey is needed along with many, many mountain journeys along the way.

These influencers, priests, rabbis, and ministers draw darkness and create darkness from many through their soul connection with my soul; breaking their soul and mine. By doing this they break theirs also. Negative versions of life, need Love. Choose to face your resistance and close the circuit so Light for your life can shine in new ways.

There is more to this, but my back is in so much pain, with every battle yell in soul resistance from one or a combination of many. Your Divine Action isn’t within my Center of Divine Action. Please look within your own energy field for the pathways designed for you. I am begging you, please. I can’t drop an f-bomb anymore, and the bowl for helping me face the hate for my life now and the lost opportunities needs F-Balm, along with healings from many Divine and Sacred Healers, including myself.